Hi, my name is Kay and I am an alcoholic with two choices to make. To drink and die or stay sober and live. Today I choose the latter. There was a time in my life I thought alcohol had won. I had used up all my willpower trying to fight this disease. I was ready to let it beat me until I found AA or it found me.
There I was to learn I was suffering from an illness called alcoholism. An illness which gave me no defence from the physical allergy and mental obsession that occurred every time I lifted the first drink. I chose drink every time over my family, friends and job, nothing else mattered. I acted in a way that was totally insane. I was nasty, smashed things up, never washed, was suicidal and many other things. My life was unmanageable and I was powerless over alcohol. Today however, my life is manageable. I am still powerless over alcohol but I have found a better solution than alcohol for my illness.
I have joined a Fellowship called Alcoholics Anonymous. They have taught me to change my thinking. I am learning to accept things and not analyse everything. I have found a Higher Power. I cannot see the God of my choice nor do I fully understand. All I have to do is be willing and to believe. My sponsor is taking me through the Twelve Step Programme. All of these combined today make me happier and give me a serenity I have never experienced before. I have only begun this mystical journey. But, with the new friends I have found and the ‘Promises’ I hear read at meetings I am assured that I can have a life beyond my wildest dreams. All I have to do is choose.
Kay
Falkirk Sunday Night Erskine Church Group